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What If Everything You Were Told About God Was Wrong?

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Before You Could Explain Yourself, He Was Already There
Before You Could Explain Yourself, He Was Already There

The First Step👣

Jesus was in trouble again.

Not the dramatic kind. No arrest, no confrontation at the temple steps. Just the slow and steady kind of trouble that follows a person who keeps choosing the wrong dinner guests. The Pharisees and teachers of the law had been watching, and what they saw genuinely offended them. Tax collectors. Sinners. People whose lives were visibly, publicly broken. And Jesus, this rabbi, this teacher, this man who claimed to speak for God, was not just tolerating their presence. He was welcoming them. He was pulling up a chair. He was passing the bread and asking for more wine.

So they muttered. That word in the original Greek carries the weight of something persistent, a low hum of ongoing complaint, not a one-time objection but a constant background noise of disapproval. This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.

They meant it as an accusation.

Jesus heard it as a sermon title.

And so He told three stories. A shepherd who leaves ninety-nine sheep to find one lost one. A woman who tears her house apart searching for one lost coin. And then a father whose younger son asked for his inheritance early, which in that culture was essentially the same as looking your father in the eye and saying I wish you were already dead, and then walking away without looking back.

Jesus did not tell these stories to inspire us. He told them to correct us. Because the religious leaders of His day had built an entire system around a God who rewards the worthy and punishes the wandering. And Jesus looked at that system, looked at all the people it had left bleeding on the side of the road, and said quietly but clearly, no. Let me show you who the Father actually is.

The Pebble in My Path🚶🏽‍➡️

Here is what stops me every single time I read this story.

The son was still a long way off.

Not cleaned up. Not rehearsed. Not carrying a bouquet or a carefully worded apology folded neatly in his pocket. He was dirty and hungry and carrying the smell of the pig pen he had just crawled out of, wearing the consequences of every bad decision he had ever made. He had a speech prepared because he had already decided he did not deserve to come home as a son anymore. He had pre-negotiated his own demotion somewhere on that long road home. He was walking toward the house with his eyes fixed on the ground, ready to settle for servant status in his own father's house.

And his father was already running.

Which means the father had been watching the horizon. Every morning. Every evening. Scanning the road for a silhouette he would recognize even at a distance, even after all that time, even after everything that had been said and done and broken. His waiting was not quiet resignation. It was active, aching, daily hope wearing out the floorboards of the front porch.

And here is the pebble, the thing I cannot keep walking past without stopping to pick up and hold for a moment.

Most of us have been handed a version of God that looks absolutely nothing like this father.

We were given a God who keeps score. A God who is disappointed by default and pleased only when we perform correctly. A God whose arms stay crossed until we get our act together, whose forgiveness always comes with fine print at the bottom of the page, whose love has to be earned back slowly, one good deed at a time. And we built entire religious systems around that God. Systems of shame, systems of performance, entire spiritual cultures that made broken people feel like they needed to fix themselves before they were allowed to come home.

But that God does not exist anywhere in this story.

One of the most persistent tendencies we carry as human beings is to assume the world is fundamentally transactional. That we get what we deserve. That outcomes reflect merit. We apply that logic to everything, including God, and especially to God, because if God is transactional then at least we feel like we understand the rules. If I behave well enough, God owes me peace. If I fail badly enough, God owes me punishment. It is terrifying and strangely comforting at the same time because control, even imaginary control, is easier than grace.

But grace does not have rules. And that is precisely what makes it so difficult to receive.

The son had a transaction ready. Make me a servant. Give me what I deserve. Let me earn my way back in small, manageable installments over time.

And the father interrupted him mid-sentence with a robe and a ring and a party.

The Compass🧭

This is not a story about a son who found his way home.

This is a story about a Father who never stopped watching for him.

There is a reason Jesus made the father the hero and not the son. The son's repentance, while genuine, was partially motivated by an empty stomach. He came home because he was starving. His theology was still broken when he arrived. He still believed he had to negotiate his place at the table. Left entirely to himself, he would have settled for servant quarters in his own family home.

But the father would not let him finish the speech.

The why of the Gospel has never been about human performance. It has always, only, been about divine character. The father does not run because the son finally deserved it. He runs because that is simply, beautifully, scandalously who the father is. Compassion was not something he manufactured in the emotional heat of the moment. It had been there the whole time, stretched taut across every morning and every evening the son had been gone, waiting for something to move toward.

Jesus is telling us something that should honestly unsettle us a little. God is already moving toward you before you have taken a single step in His direction.

Not waiting with a clipboard reviewing your file. Not calculating whether your repentance is sincere enough or your record clean enough or your apology articulate enough. Running. Embracing. Restoring. Before you can explain yourself He has already covered you. Before you can offer your regret He has already offered His redemption. The robe covers the rags. The ring restores the identity. The feast announces to every single person watching that this one belongs to me and I am not ashamed of it.

And then there is a detail we almost always rush past too quickly. The older son stands outside the party, arms folded, furious, refusing to go in. He has kept every rule. He has never wandered. He has logged every hour of faithful service. And he cannot bring himself to celebrate his brother's return because somewhere along the way, obedience had quietly replaced love as the foundation of his identity. He had been living in the father's house the entire time and had never truly known the father's heart.

The story ends without telling us whether the older son ever walked through the door.

That open ending is not an accident. Jesus left it unresolved because He was looking at the Pharisees when He told it. He was looking at everyone who has ever felt more comfortable with a God of rules than a God of reckless, running, embarrassing love. And He was asking the only question that actually matters. Will you come in? Or will you stand outside protecting a theology that has quietly stolen your joy?

The Open Road🛣️

If you are the one who feels far away right now, please hear this before anything else.

You are not too far. You have not been gone too long. You have not done too much. The distance you feel is real but it is not the final word on your story. Because the Father sees you from further away than you realize and He is not squinting at you with disappointment. He is leaning forward with recognition. He knows the way you walk. He knows your silhouette against the sky. And the moment you turn, even slightly, even imperfectly, even still carrying the smell of where you have been, He moves.

You do not have to have the speech ready. You do not have to have the plan figured out. You do not have to be clean before you come home. The robe comes after the running, not before.

And if you are the older brother in this story, the one who has stayed and served and quietly kept score, this story belongs to you just as much. Because you can be in the Father's house every single day and still not know the Father's heart. Proximity is not intimacy. Religious faithfulness without grace has a way of curdling slowly into resentment. And the question the Father asks the older son is the same one He whispers to us. Can you celebrate what I celebrate? Can you love what I love? Can you find it in yourself to run toward what I run toward?

Sit with these questions this week and let them breathe.

What version of God are you actually living with, the one who keeps score or the one who runs?

Is there someone in your life you have quietly written off as too far gone, someone the Father might already be sprinting toward right now?

And if it is you who feels distant, what is one small turn in the direction of home?

You do not have to arrive today. You just have to turn.

The Father will handle everything that comes after.

Stay barefoot. Stay honest. Stay open to the God who runs.


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